You feel alone. Like you have no where to go, and no one to turn to. You scream, but no one hears you. You run, but no one sees you. You feel completely and utterly alone. You just want it to be over, and it will be. You just have to hold on just a little while longer.
If you’re having thoughts of suicide you really should talk to someone about it. If you feel that you don’t have anyone that you can talk to, call 1-800-273-TALK (1-800-273-8255). They have counselors waiting for your call. They will listen to you. Just don’t give up.
Above is a picture of my family from Thanksgiving of 2010. That was the first Thanksgiving that I had spent with my mother’s side in a while. I was really happy because we hadn’t been together in a while. I lived in Michigan, my aunt and two of my cousins live in Texas, my uncle and his son live in Iowa, and the rest of the family that were there live here in Indiana. This is not only a great family picture, but it’s also the last picture that I have with my grandpa.
I had never lost someone that I was close to before, with the exception of my uncle when I was a child. Even my great grandparents are still alive. My grandpa has been sick all of his life; he was born with a bad heart. Last November his health got worse. The doctors told us that he only had a year or two to live because his heart was overworking. After that, he couldn’t stay with us anymore. He had to move in with some of our cousins whom he grew up with. That was the last time I saw my grandpa. I used to think about him and how I should call him, just to see how he was doing. To check up on him. Now I think about how I should have called him and how I’m too late. He would call me to ask if I would go to church with him but it never happened.